Patience is not a virtue I’m gifted with. Waiting is torture, and I solve it with busyness to pass the time. But I’ve gotten to the point where waiting even 2 minutes sends me to do one more quick thing- send an email, check out Facebook, send a text or make a move on a game. I call it multitasking and being productive, but often it’s just promoting my sense of hurry up and do more in less.
Waiting for bigger things is even tougher. It is for most of us. We’ve been waiting 12+ years for an effective treatment for Michael. We’ve been waiting almost 5 years to find Austin. This week I had to wait 3 days for answers from medical tests, and now wait longer to hope the symptoms just resolve since the tests didn’t show anything definitive. My mom was dealt a tough situation this week that requires waiting. I don’t like any of these. I’d like to demand God to solve them all. Now. Please?
But that’s not how He works, and I know that though I still whine about it sometimes. Those are the days that things feel like they’re piling up, and the waiting is pushing my faith. I’m trying to see these times as what they really are, a time to learn through that push, to rely on faith even more. And maybe to have more to share with someone who is also waiting.
I’m making a concerted effort to use those more of those moments of downtime to talk with God. I’m praying for peace and a slower pace. And I’m still praying for answers, but with a little more peace about the wait.
But those who wait on the LORD shall renew their strength; They shall mount up with wings like eagles, They shall run and not be weary, They shall walk and not faint. (NKJV)
Trying daily….. Anita
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