I’m Back

I’ve been absent here for a bit.  Some of you know that when there’s been a bit between posts it’s usually because I’m struggling with how to turn junk going on in our lives into something positive or sharable here.  It’s a bit different this time, with a conscious decision to give myself time to get through some stressful stuff and come back later.  It felt good.  But I also missed writing.  So here’s what you missed. 

 

The CUE Center for Missing Persons does an annual event called ‘Road to Remember’ that helps raise awareness of missing person cases, most of whom haven’t had as much attention as they need.  Monica Caison and her crew travel for about 10 days, on a loop that starts and finishes in North Carolina, but covers several states with multiple tour stops each day. 

 

Though the tour was coming through Florida this year, we decided not to host a stop.  In truth, we don’t need more awareness for Austin, we need more searches. 
And though we want to help with awareness of missing persons in general, and specifically of the families in Jacksonville we know with a missing loved one, this year the amount of work it would take during a very busy time wasn’t a good tradeoff. 

 

But then Austin was named as the tour’s honoree, right about the same time that my mom confirmed her job offer that would mean moving away and likely starting her first week the same week of the tour.  When the date/time of our tour stop was given to us, it also fell two days before I left out of town for a week, a day when I was being requested to travel to another city, and on a weekday afternoon when we wouldn’t have the help and support of the people we could normally count on. 

Super.  {eye roll}

But I managed to stay in town that day and made it work.  My mom managed to put off her start date a week. My fabulous aunt came in to town to help us too.  It happened.

 

For the record, I hate these events.  I like thinking, I don’t like feeling.  I like taking action, not looking back to remember.

 

Though very few people attended, we did meet our one goal.  We actually exceeded it.  We hoped to get just one news story about our missing shown, and we had one story air three times, showing the names and faces of many of our missing in the area.  We also had another story shown multiple times, again with many of their names and faces shown.

 

So, I guess after all there was progress and there was action.  It was a good day.

I spent the next 10 days immersed in a busy work week of travel and catching back up with my boys.

 

But I’m back after the craziness, and happy to be sharing with you again.

Hope you’ll stick around.

rally

Proud of my Mom

Tribute for a Mom

This Mother’s Day I’ll be eating breakfast my guys cook and wearing a fancy hat to church. This Mother’s Day my mom will eat in a camper and test her search skills.This Mother’s Day I’ll have sweet hugs from my sons. This Mother’s Day my mom won’t have her son here to hug, so she’ll work towards a certification for leading searches. This Mother’s Day I’d like a jewelry box. This Mother’s Day, my mom wants the gift of being able to help bring someone’s child home.

Since Austin isn’t here to say ‘I love you’ or ‘thanks’ I’d like to say it for him. Thank you for being willing to sacrifice so much for him, for me and for others. Thank you for loving us always, teaching us about life, pushing us when needed, supporting us no matter, teaching us the value of hard work and to never give up.

Austin talked to you when no one else, knowing you would comfort but always help also. He respected you and loved you. If here, he would say thanks in a simple and quick way, but would mean it deeply.

Though I have my own methods, I hope and pray that my boys grow to know what Austin and I always knew- that they are loved by us and by God, and can never stray so far to be out of our love. Thank you.



Mom with Monica Caison, being presented with a CUE Keeper of the Flame Award, 2011

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