Glitter & Good News

It’s the second most magical time of the year! You know, the time when we all have a fresh start. We have clean homes, new calendars, goals and themes for the New Year. We’re getting healthy, keeping our closets organized, and planning our meals.

Except . . . I’m sitting here at the end of the first full week of the year, and there’s glitter on my cheek. Why? Because last night I finally started putting up the Christmas decor, and still today have piles of lights and ornaments and pine needles in my living room floor. And I overslept and skipped the shower, so I keep finding specks of glitter in random places.

Read the rest of this post over at the Orange Leaders Blog!……

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We Live

The first day of a new year is one I typically love.  I love fresh starts and clean slates.  I love to start the year with an organized house, new plans, fresh calendars and renewed hope.

I’ve spent the last few days considering how to participate in one of the many challenges happening by authors and leaders I follow.  Do I make goals around my blog, my speaking ‘career’, family time, projects I volunteer with, health and fitness… so many choices, and so many things I’d truly like to focus on in the few spare minutes I have after the must do’s that include my job, my commute, showering, brushing teeth, etc.  (Incidentally, no one has gotten on board with me skipping some of those).  What do I make my one word of the year?

But I’m back in that stuck place, of waiting to see if Michael gets better or worse, and feeling on hold.  His sister and her family are visiting us too, which should be a great time, but isn’t what it should be since he’s not well enough to spend more than a few minutes at a time with them.

And in my holding pattern, it finally hit me.  My goal for 2014 is to not wait.  Not wait on resolutions, or timing, or feeling right.  Not to feel like I am constantly waiting on something to enjoy life.  This is the life we have.  And I love it.

There are things I’m praying will change- we ask God continuously to bring my brother home.  We ask God continuously to bring healing to Michael.  We will never stop.

But we also live.

So this year, I want to live in the moments we have, not waiting for better times.  These are the times we have.

And there are too many splendid things to keep waiting on something more.

Wishing you and your family the 2014 you hope for.

~Anita~

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Milestones

Almost two years ago I started writing this blog, quite unsure of where it might go, if I’d keep it up and how much I’d really be able to share.  I had no real goals for it, besides being an outlet to share my story of losing Austin and our search for him, but also of my ongoing healing process.

Two days ago my blog hit a pretty big milestone, of having 10,000 page views (not counting my own, thank you).  For any noteworthy blogs, that’s a number they hit each day, so I realize it’s a very small number really.  But for me it’s big- it’s taken a lot of courage for me to write, and to ask others to read.  Each time I write I begin to question if what I said has any value in being put out there, if I’ve revealed too much, if I’ve painted to rosy a picture, if I’ve said anything that might help anyone.  So for someone have taken time to look at something I wrote, 10,000 times, means to me that this is worthwhile and may help someone as much as it helps me.

Thank you for reading, thank you for sharing, and thank you for encouraging me along the way.  Thank you.

I’m starting to set some goals, and starting to look into promoting this little project.  The views per post continue to grow, but if I’m to reach my real goal of sharing our story and our message of hope with a wider audience, I realize it takes more than just posting it.  But without your support, I never would have the courage to start trying to promote it, so again- thank you.

I care much less about the 10,000 than I do about the 1- the 1 who may read something they needed to read that day.  The 1 will always be my focus.

and p.s.  for my friends who long surpassed my little milestone, tips are welcome! 

All these people going somewhere…

I’m headed to Houston, and somehow ended up with two stops to get there. Jacksonville to Charlotte, Charlotte to New Orleans and New Orleans to Houston. Not exactly a direct path.

But I’m here with an army of Monday morning commuters, all scrambling to get somewhere… a client visit, a sales prospect, a training or some other ‘gotta get there’ locale.

I don’t know where I’m headed. I mean, I know where I’m going today. But airports always spark a reminder for me that there are so many yet to be explored places. I see city names and think of what potential might be there, what lies ahead for the people at that gate. And I face the reality that I’m not really headed where I want to be.

I enjoy my job, and love the challenges that come daily. I’m fortunate to have that and I know it.

But yet… I literally fantasize about doing something that truly reaches people. I dream of finding a way to share my story and share hope. Not hope that things will always turn out okay. But real hope, that we are not alone through anything, that God loves us and has a plan for us. That he can use us through the bad we’ve done or experienced.

Today I’m heading to Houston. But I’m continuing to take one small step at a time to that place I really want to be. And maybe one day I’ll be getting on a plane to speak to groups about this message. In the meantime, where I’m at isn’t so bad.

Maybe like my indirect route to Houston, I’m just taking a bit longer to get there.



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