We Live

The first day of a new year is one I typically love.  I love fresh starts and clean slates.  I love to start the year with an organized house, new plans, fresh calendars and renewed hope.

I’ve spent the last few days considering how to participate in one of the many challenges happening by authors and leaders I follow.  Do I make goals around my blog, my speaking ‘career’, family time, projects I volunteer with, health and fitness… so many choices, and so many things I’d truly like to focus on in the few spare minutes I have after the must do’s that include my job, my commute, showering, brushing teeth, etc.  (Incidentally, no one has gotten on board with me skipping some of those).  What do I make my one word of the year?

But I’m back in that stuck place, of waiting to see if Michael gets better or worse, and feeling on hold.  His sister and her family are visiting us too, which should be a great time, but isn’t what it should be since he’s not well enough to spend more than a few minutes at a time with them.

And in my holding pattern, it finally hit me.  My goal for 2014 is to not wait.  Not wait on resolutions, or timing, or feeling right.  Not to feel like I am constantly waiting on something to enjoy life.  This is the life we have.  And I love it.

There are things I’m praying will change- we ask God continuously to bring my brother home.  We ask God continuously to bring healing to Michael.  We will never stop.

But we also live.

So this year, I want to live in the moments we have, not waiting for better times.  These are the times we have.

And there are too many splendid things to keep waiting on something more.

Wishing you and your family the 2014 you hope for.

~Anita~

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